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January BlogMixtape: “Be Pretty With Me Now”

January 15th, 2008 by rachel

As much as I’ve been digging the latest dancy tracks from Justice, Chromatics, M.I.A. (of course), and Sharon Jones and the Dap-Kings, mid-winter has put me in a pretty mellow mood. On that note, here’s this month’s bloggy mix:

 

I’ve been reading a lot of poetry this week - Matthea Harvey’s latest, lots of Alice Notley, Joe Wenderoth - and writing a lot too. To satisfy my ever-growing obsession with New German Cinema (German New Wave), I’ve been plugging along on poems about the work of Wim Wenders, among other things. I’m headed to Michigan tomorrow (AGAIN) to give a reading at Shaman Drum Bookshop in Ann Arbor on Thursday, January 16th at 7 p.m. It should be a good time and I’m looking forward to seeing a few familiar faces. Maybe I’ll see some of you there . . .

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this post is for Marshall

January 9th, 2008 by rachel

For my dear friend Marshall, who leaves tomorrow afternoon to make his new home in Durban, South Africa . . . a clip from my last radio show on WCBN, 4/20/07, 4:35 AM.

Happy travels, don’t get mugged, I’ll be thinking of you.

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Worst. Idea. Ever.

January 3rd, 2008 by rachel

Lake Michigan on New Year’s Day (outside temp 20 degrees).

lake bsp;<michigan, new years day

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Rachel, Ryan, & Mike

rachel, ryan, mike, all bundled up

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The Chicago Polar Bear Club’s New Year’s Day Swim.
Potentially the coldest, most miserable experience you could possibly have.FREEZING.

Let me just clarify here. There was no sand on the beach, only snow. There was no Baywatch-style running straight into the water. Do you see that pool of icy slush that is separated from the lake by a mass of frozen waves? Well, to get into the actual lake you had to jump waist-deep into the icy sludge, crawl out on top of that little mini-glacier thing, and then slide into the lake and run out deep enough to duck under the three-foot waves while avoiding being hit by chunks of floating ice. Then you had to crawl back out onto the mini-glacier, and slip again into the sludge puddle before making it onto the snow-covered beach. There were obese people getting stuck in the icy slush pool, blocking others from getting out of the water. There were old men wearing nothing but speedos and terry-cloth bathrobes. And once wet, each person who braved the seriously-frigid, hypothermia-inducing temperatures of the freezing lake seemed to become a shrieking, panic-stricken banshee who was too cold to get dressed by themselves and kept yelling at us to help them put their gloves on. It was terrifying.

But on to the awesome, less-like-thousands-of-tiny-knives-piercing-your-flesh parts of New Year’s Weekend!

Best. Ideas. Ever.

Mini-roadtrip from Kalamazoo!
(sorry for the whitewash, Mike’s camera was messed up)

COROLLA

Letting Mike choose the driving music.

 

Dancing. (yes, those are flashing maracas)

Mike dances.

Rachel dances.

So I’m back in Grand Rapids for the evening; it’s been a good, long break. I’m heading back to SeriousBusiness, South Carolina tomorrow morning, eager to get some work done. More later . . .

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Things I Look at / Read

December 28th, 2007 by rachel

‘Tis the season for Top Ten Lists!

It seems like just about everyone is compiling their collections of favorite books/albums/headlines from 2007, so in between sitting around my folks’ house in Michigan, reading, going out with Vlad, and drinking Brandy Alexanders with my mother, I’ve put together an end-of-the-year list of my own. To keep it from turning into My Top 500, I left out any and all books or literary journals, but without further caveat, here it is, in no particular order:

The Top Ten Things I Regularly Look At / Read

The Believer - Concerned with literary endeavors of all kinds, The Believer’s seductively-matte, ad-free pages are consistently brimming with witty and well-researched articles about what’s going on in contemporary literature & art. Each issue regularly includes Nick Hornby’s monthly column titled “Stuff I’ve Been Reading,” big-name interviews of authors, musicians, artists, and critics like Michael Ondaatje and Panda Bear, a few page-long (usually praising) appraisals of new books, and Sedaratives - an always-ridiculous monthly advice column. The bulk of the magazines content comes in its articles and essays. With topics like “The Visual Erotics of Mini-Marriages: The Appeal of Tiny Nuptials Between Children, Stuffed Kittens, and Other Small, Cute Things” and “Frog Speech: The Actual History of Synthetic Larynges,” The Believer’s range of subject matter combines eclecticism with just enough obscurity and esoterica to satisfy even the most culturally curious of readers. Articles and essays are prefaced with an intriguingly sprawling list of topics to be discussed (ex. “Oulipo Ends Where the Work BeginsDISCUSSED: Animal House, A Paragraph of Proust, Old Corned-Beef, Stubbly Gauchos, Jungle Chess, Pure Potential, François Le Lionnais, Hervé Le Tellier, The National Puzzlers’ League, Princeton, David Blaine, Bilingual Puns, Free-Thinking Dogs, Extraneous Jazz, First Sentences, Short Naps, Gibberish, Italo Calvino, Non-Writers, Potential Cooking, Graph Theory, Combinatorics, The Realm of the Actual, Indiana, Hilarity, A Sarcophagus Full of Bees, Empedocles), embodying the characteristic non-linearity and mix-and-match experimentation that supply much of The Believer’s charming surprise. Also be sure to check out gems like this winner of the Convergences Contest (a call for resembling images inspired by Lawrence Weschler’s Book of Convergences) and the List of Lists found on McSweeney’s Internet Tendency, a lit/humor website produced by The Believer’s publishing house, McSweeney’s.

The New York Times - Not only will The Times keep you informed on what’s going on at home, in Iraq, and elsewhere, but its later pages (especially the Science and Travel sections) offer quick, often-mindless escapes from many of the bleak problems found on the front page. There’s always something entertaining to be found in their list of Most E-mailed Articles, and I read the Arts section regularly, sometimes honoring the recommendations of Times film critics A.O. Scott (click to see his own top ten list) and Manohla Dargis over those of friends and family. And though I often tire of page after page of advertisements for insanely expensive flats and overpriced jewelry, much of this can be avoided by reading the newpaper’s content online (though on nytimes.com and especially in the Times Magazine you’ll still regularly find less-than-newsworthy coverage of celebs like Natalie Portman and Ivanka Trump). Still, in spite of its blatant cosmopolitanism, I think we can all agree that wide distribution, international coverage, and high standards of journalism have made the New York Times one of the definitive American sources for world news.

23/6 - “Where outraged people go in order to get more outraged before going to have dinner.” Combining the sarcasm of The Onion with the opinion and analysis of sister site The Huffington Post, 23/6 is the news source to which I turn when I’m feeling even more disenchanted and cynical about the state of American politics than usual. Admittedly, its opinions are far from “fair and balanced” (their tagline reads, “Some of the news, most of the time.”), but with headlines like, “Rush Limbaugh hates Hillary’s wrinkles — maybe she should fill them with fat, like he does,” “President Bush to surprise foreign leaders with international ‘pop-in,’” “Thought Process Flowchart: King Abdullah of Saudi Arabia,” and prominently displayed links to articles from Dickpedia, an encyclopedic catalogue of 23/6’s pick of the world’s biggest dicks, I can laugh about the foibles of our planet’s political leaders instead of cry!

Pitchfork Media - It’s one of those love to hate ‘em/hate to love ‘em type-of conundrums. I love music. I love playing music. I love listening to new music, and I love that Pitchfork hands me a decent recommendation or two every single week. I also look forward to Pitchfork’s end of the year lists to catch up on good stuff I might’ve missed - this year I’ve probably listened to at least forty of their Top 50 Albums of 2007, and I really liked a lot of them. But Pitchfork isn’t always the most courageous with their reviewing (I would venture to say that two-thirds of the albums they review fall somewhere between a 6.0 and an 8.0 on their sometimes-very-arbitrary-seeming, decimal-inclusive rating scale), and I think I threw up in my mouth a little bit when their rating of Radiohead’s In Rainbows was “fill-in-the-blank,” a cutesy play on the band’s decision to let listeners pick their own price for a downloadable version of the album. So if you’re looking for a second opinion, you might try cokemachineglow (a younger, slightly less-extensive, but more modest music review site - though frankly, I’m not sure how often they tend to strongly disagree with Pitchfork), and for reviews of a wider variety of genres (including classical), check out AllMusic Guide’s Allmusic blog.

The New Yorker - An iconic item of American culture, The New Yorker seems to successfully and accessibly blur the line that separates pop culture and high art. It offers some worthwhile cultural commentary, literary review, and reportage, and I especially appreciate the emphasis The New Yorker places on presenting its readers with decent modern fiction (this week Ray Carver) on a weekly basis. This being said, I sometimes think I get more out of the magazine from perusing its list of NYC’s gallery opening’s and film screenings (and later googling the websites of these artists and filmmakers) than I do from the magazine’s actual content. If you’re like me (and this lady), the New Yorker arrives in your mailbox each week like clockwork, and, just as routinely, you continue to read each issue even though you often hate it. I almost never like their poetry selections (crummy work by big names - though Paul Muldoon could correct the magazine’s poetic course by putting in a little more innovation and effort into his new appointment as The New Yorker’s Poetry Editor than he did into writing that god-awful introduction for the version of Best American Poetry he edited in 2005) and also, unfortunately, the New Yorker continues to employ the Ann Coulter of indie-rock, Sasha Frere-Jones, as their pop music critic.

A self-proclaimed supplier of “mad love and raw justice,” Frere-Jones’ reviews unfailingly include sharp insights, such as “[Caetano] Veloso made the notes disappear by backing away from the microphone as he sang.” He calls Radiohead “baby-making music.” He cited Animal Collective’s Strawberry Jam as “the musical equivalent of a painting by de Kooning” (that’s deep, man). In late October he slammed the state of contemporary indie-rock as being monotonous, vigorless, arrhythmic, and precious - claims that were framed by his personal anecdote of a live Arcade Fire performance where he “didn’t hear what [he] really wanted to hear . . . a stretch of raucous sing-alongs, a bit of swing, some empty space, and palpable bass frequencies—in other words, attributes of African-American popular music.” Have you tried hip-hop, Sasha? Basically, he irritates me because I can’t tell whether he’s a pretentious bombast who thinks he’s actually flaunting some unique insight, or whether he’s just an idiot whose main boasting point is his ability to hold his current job in spite of a pitiably extreme lack of actual musical knowledge. So yeah, I read the New Yorker a lot.

Gawker - A kind-of ultra-hateful, Manhattan-centric US Weekly for anyone who wouldn’t be caught dead perusing tabloids in the grocery store checkout. Frankly, I don’t really care about what celebrity was recently spotted on the corner of 14th and Broadway, but honestly, who doesn’t love laughing at ludicrously-clad uber-hipsters on Gawker’s weekly photo-column Blue States Lose (my favorite: “Hipster or Halloween Costume?“). And also, how can I not love Gawker when their articles so often perfectly paraphrase the thoughts running through my own head (like this one about Slate film critic Dana Stevens recommending Korean horror film The Host . . . which you should all watch)? Since Gawker will readily slam pretty much any cultural, socio-economical, or political segment of the world population with equal nastiness, its often good to read when you’re feeling superior to everyone else. But as much as I like to make fun of the next guy, I usually turn to Gawker for a strong dose of their typographically-organized self-loathing: after all, the only thing Gawker hates more than those who belittle New York City are idiotic New Yorkers themselves.

Popular Mechanics - Looking through everything else on my list of most-read periodicals, Popular Mechanics might seem like a bit of a dark horse. Well, if you’re surprised, don’t be . . . not only does Popular Mechanics satiate my frequent cravings for scientific reading, it consistently focuses on improving its readers quality of life. Popular Mechanics offers instruction on how to fix things (and seriously, who doesn’t want to acquire more useful life-skills, like changing your oil, fixing a dead outlet, or maneuvering out of a skid), it keeps readers up-to-date on how the 2008 presidential candidates weigh in on issues of science, environment, and technology, articles like this one about reducing your waste imprint emphasize our individual impact on the environment, and updates on how technological breakthroughs are making the world a better place to live (like this one about efficient cookstoves for refugees in Darfur) offer hope enough to keep my sometimes-overwhelming pessimism in check. So if you’re feeling extra cynical, check out the online version of Popular Mechanics to learn how to build your own compost bin, or for other tips on environmentally-friendly living, also be sure to check out National Geographic’s Green Guide.

UBUWEB - A seemingly endless archive of avant-garde audio, writing, and film, the non-commercial UBUWEB offers free access to intellectual materials that are otherwise only marginally distributed. Watch a biography/critical piece on Jorge Luis Borges, see short films by Dziga Vertov and Bas Jan Ader, or watch Merce Cunningham’s company dance to Eno’s soundscapes in Pond Way. Read work by Richard Serra in UBUWEB’s Anthology of Conceptual Writing, listen to music by Tim Hecker or try Scriabin’s stunningly beautiful Prelude in D-flat major as it was recorded for issue 2 of Aspen magazine. If you can understand French, listen to lectures by Roland Barthes, or to audio pieces by Antonin Artaud (again in French), or Alvin Lucier, or Marina Abramovic. Hear the sound poetry of Henri Chopin and Rick Moody, radio pieces by DJ Spooky, listen to James Joyce read from Ulysses and Ezra Pound read from the Cantos. With this site on the list, I probably should have also included “Things I Listen To” in the title, but then I would have had to find space here for NPR, Transom, podcasts of This American Life, WFMU, and WCBN.

Slate - What isn’t there to love about Slate? Its articles cover everything from news, to food, to arts & literature, never failing to offer that deadpan cynicism on which I rely (as in “Hunting Shops are Having a Terrible Year. Uh Oh.” and “Kwanzaa is Made Up, But Beneficial), and they even have the balls to write a regular column about what’s worth reading in Other Magazines (or I guess you could sort through all of it yourself on Drudge Report, but seriously, who can handle that nauseatingly-clinical, three-column layout?). With extensive coverage of the 2008 Presidential Campaigns, thought-provoking literary and cultural commentary, regular articles by Christopher Hitchens, frequent film reviews that often offer a alternative opinion to those in The Times, and a weekly poem selected by Robert Pinsky, Slate’s frequently-updated segments hit all of my soft spots.

Harper’s - Potentially the only publication with which I become increasingly pleased upon reading each new issue. Truly a general-interest magazine (given that you have at least a slight degree of intellectual curiosity and an interest in learning about the world), the variety of topics explored in Harper’s is so wide-ranging that I won’t even try to list them all. Subscriptions are cheap, the magazine’s writing is top-notch and consistently challenging, and I am generally impressed with the passionate opinions offered each month in Harper’s Notebook (former editor Lewis Lapham’s January 2008-issue crack about outsourcing America’s political infrastructure was excellent). Harper’s Index and Findings accessibly present a smattering of often-hilarious though sometimes-disturbing factoids (”the average American woman will have 0.9 abortions in her lifetime”) that are easy to remember and quote, and the Readings section consistently offers a bizarre collection of tidbits that always seem somehow representative of the current state of our world, despite their clear position on the furthest outskirts of cultural marginalia.

I’m heading off to Chicago this weekend to ring in the dawn of 2007 Part 2 (a.k.a. 2008). Plans include dancing, joining the Polar Bear Club for a Lake Michigan swim on New Years Day, and other general funness/celebration. Edward-Champagne-Bottle-Hands, here I come!

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Merry Christmas

December 25th, 2007 by rachel

if you’re into that sort of thing.

But if Santa and Jesus aren’t your winter icons of choice, perhaps you should try . . .

dinosoldiers

festive dinosaurs?

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happy whatever

December 20th, 2007 by rachel

So I’m back in Michigan again, finally, after two days of nightmarish travel. We left for the airport around 9 a.m. on Sunday to ensure that Nicholas could make his flight to Milwaukee at 11:30. My flight, which was supposed to leave at 2:20, was delayed and then canceled while I was waiting in the airport, due to a crazy snowstorm in Cleveland. So, after waiting for another hour or so for them to try and rebook me, I was switched to an alternate flight home approximately 10 minutes before boarding on the plane was closed. I ran frantically through the full length of Charlotte-Douglas International Airport, only to find out upon reaching the gate that the plane had left before I even made it through security. Insensitive flight attendants berated me to the point of tears for not making to the gate before departure in spite of their valiant efforts to “page” me over the airport intercom, and they refused to admit that I had been booked on a flight I couldn’t possibly have made.

Flustered, disheveled, and already a bit battered from the abuse and condescension of Northwest Airlines staff, I returned to the ticket counter to find that every single flight back to Grand Rapids for the rest of the day - through every major city this side of the Rocky Mountains - was full. I was forced into taking a flight the following afternoon, while my luggage (toothbrush and phone charger included) made their merry way to Memphis without me. Derya and Arielle had to drive an extra two hours to come and pick me up.

Monday was slightly less bad, though for some reason I was targeted for one of those extra-thorough security checks, which involved them swabbing all of my stuff for explosives, sending me through the terrifying air puffer machine, taking the insoles out of my shoes, pulling the pockets out of my pants and jacket, and leaving me in a locked glass box for about ten minutes while they shot skeptical glances in my direction and waited for the results of the explosives testing. That was fun.

But fortunately I made it back home in time to head up to northern Michigan and see Marshall one last time before he heads off to South Africa. After I left the Grand Rapids airport Monday afternoon I drove up to Petoskey to meet up with him and stayed until early this afternoon. Marshall got all his things packed, we ate some tasty Thai food, and we watched four or five episodes of The (American) Office, to which I am now pretty much addicted. I think it was the most television I’ve seen since May. Tuesday afternoon I walked to the beach and snapped a few photos of the sun setting over the bay:

lake michigan

Lake Michigan is beautiful.

And for friends who are spending the holidays abroad and for those whose addresses I’ve lost - I’m sorry I couldn’t get you a copy of the seasonal greeting card that Nicholas, Derya, Arielle and I sent out. For the card the four of us took a slightly-holiday-themed A-I-R family photo. Now that all the cards have been sent and (hopefully!) received, here are a few of the outtakes that didn’t make the cut:

happy whatever.

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late autumn in the blue ridge

December 13th, 2007 by rachel

The mid-December heat wave that hit us on Monday got me itching for some time in the great outdoors! I was hoping to head back to the Smokies for a night or two to enjoy the woods and weather, but apparently, I can’t plan my way out of a paper bag and completely miscalculated, of all things, the driving time it would take me to get there. So I settled instead on a trek into the slightly closer-to-home, somewhat less isolated, though equally panoramic Blue Ridge Mountains where I headed to the top of Mt. Pisgah, elevation 5,721 feet. It was a beautiful hike and a much-needed retreat from all the hub-bub here in Spartanburg (puns are taking over my life!)

Mountain view at sunset
(why they call it the Blue Ridge):

sunset

Crazy light on the trees:

trees at dusk

Looking Glass Falls at dusk:

Looking Glass Falls

From the top of Mt. Pisgah:

top of pisgah

top of mount pisgah

 

In full panorama:

panorama

 

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December BlogMixTape: “National Stress-Free Family Holiday Month!”

December 10th, 2007 by rachel

Sick of Christmas tunes yet?

Take your mind off the holidaze with this month’s blog mix! Dance your SAD away with White Williams and Hot Chip, get sentimental with my two new obsessions, Bon Iver and Phosphorescent, run for the border with The Animals and The Feelies, and if none of that works, just get tanked with Nina Simone. Enjoy!

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still home

December 5th, 2007 by rachel

Okay, here I am again, having not blogged for a week. To all avid followers of my bloggy life, I’m sorry I haven’t been a better blogger to you. I know you probably aren’t in the mood for excuses, but I’ve just been busy.

Anyone who knows even a little bit about my daily life knows that I’ve been working hard the past few months, and especially few weeks, on compiling, editing, and writing the introduction for Hub City’s forthcoming poetry anthology, Still Home: The Essential Poetry of Spartanburg. The whole project is finally reaching its conclusion, and I have to say, I’m really excited about the collection. It is teeming with wonderful poems from the full gamut of Spartanburg’s literary elite. We’ve got work from Pushcart winners, an O. Henry award winner, a Hoyns fellow, and more, much of which has appeared in prestigious literary journals all across America.

So you don’t think I’ve been slacking, here are a few excerpts from the introduction, if you feel like reading all that:

“. . . being such a recent transplant to Spartanburg, I wondered if I might lack a certain insight required to marry the individual works of these poets into an eloquent and unified intimation of the essential qualities of Southern life. My anxiety only heightened when, upon sending out a preliminary batch of letters soliciting work, I was repeatedly told that, despite being thrilled about the project, most of these local poets did not feel that Spartanburg was finding its way into their writing.

This in mind, when I found myself nearing the end of all the reading, editing, compiling, and organizing that went into the formation of this collection, I felt somewhat similar, I imagine, to the therapist who succeeds in awakening his patient to some latent issue that has been permeating and affecting the patient’s mental state since the earliest years of childhood. I had – right in front of me, on my very desk – seventy-five or so pages to prove that these poets had, in fact, been writing about Spartanburg all along.

In a recapitulation of, I believe, Deleuze, Jennie Neighbors writes in her poem “Thought”: “Landscapes are a preparation for what will later appear as a set.” How fitting then, that the natural beauty of the Carolinian landscape and its components – rivers, pines, mountains, heat, even kudzu – is such a patent cohesive force among the poems here. Resembling the manner in which most themes of this collection are poetically tackled, the approach through which this landscape is explored is at once historical and neoteric. We are walloped with the plate tectonics of Fred Parrish’s “Water Memory”:

What must it have been like to see
these rivers turned aside?
Cool channels deflected by hot rock.
Moving water is a force in all three tenses
where once all elemental hell broke loose.

Later, in Elizabeth Drewry’s “Thanksgiving on Glassy Mountain,” we are asked to reconcile this Creational explosion with the calmer natural world of the contemporary day:

We are far from the thin air of boardrooms,
spectacle of careers like kiting hawks on thermals:
the dihedral glide, the plummet.

We are left, then, somewhere in the middle near John Lane’s contemplative “Bethesda Road,” groping to find where our current selves fit into such an extensive and elaborate past:

Years ago I wandered here as a boy
lonely among hardwoods, sifting nearby
creek gravel for bird points, pottery.
Now the moon tightens on this outcrop
of soapstone, stemmed where bowls
were chipped loose, fell clean of rock,
in another darkness, 5,000 years ago.

Through sometimes real and sometimes imagined visions of the past, this collection’s exploration of the elements that define a place condenses the cycles of natural history from their grander scope within all of recorded time down to the everyday events of a single life. Here, these Spartanburg poets invite us into their kitchens, their yards, and sometimes, even into the homes of the unknowing next-door neighbor whose hanging blinds have been left ajar. Alex Richardson, among others, welcomes the reader to the sidewalks of Converse Heights in “Paradise Off Main”:

We eat donuts and wrap ourselves in sheets
To topple into the hammock,
Wait for the paper-boy pedaling past,
Wobbling when he reaches for the news,
Then the postman in his wool shorts
And khaki-saucer hat.

With events both fantastic and mundane, the cycles of day-to-day life presented here involve everything from potty training, to parties, to landscaping the yard. Though they are often embedded inside of the sentimentality and reminiscence that inevitably envelop the concept of “home,” these poets are not afraid to admit that family life is often anything but easy, as in Deno Trakas’ “The Smaller House”:

My son flings his things and sonofabitches
his sorryass father, downsized again.
He hurls his own hard rock and wishes
he could split this crib, this shitshack,
this hell where death begins.

Of course, before too long, in any discussion regarding cycles of the natural world the inevitable will surface: death. Upon reading and re-reading the many books and chapbooks of the writers I considered for this anthology, I couldn’t help but notice a not-so-subtle, shared preoccupation with dying. At first it seemed simply the product of common age. After all, a large number of writers whose work is here included are currently planted firmly in that strange space of middle age – a time when, I imagine, it is difficult not to feel bereaved, as one is forced to simultaneously watch children and parents grow old, while somehow retaining a feeling of remaining static. Yet, as I continued to screen more work from an increasingly large pool of poems, I begin to find that Spartanburg’s writers of all ages, ranging from recent college undergraduates to retirees, were writing about the deaths of loved ones, of strangers, and even about their own potential passing on. . . ”

Want to read more? I’ll have more info about the book release (tentatively April 2008) after the New Year!

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home sweet home

November 27th, 2007 by rachel

Thirteen hours ago, I was here:

45th parallel

And you thought I was joking when I called Michigan “The Great White North.”

Sorry I’ve been delinquent about posting . . . Thanksgiving break from the ‘Bub was a bit of a whirlwind. I was all over the state of Michigan to see my loved ones and enjoying myself too much to remember to take a lot of photos. But here’s the quick and dirty version, from the beginning:

Tuesday night I rolled in to Grand Rapids’
beautiful Gerald R. Ford International Airport.

GRR

Everyone waiting for their baggage looked cold and pasty, and I ruminated on how 18 years of near-solid cloud cover has probably irrevocably affected my personality (West Michigan is generally lauded as the 2nd cloudiest place in the U.S., behind Seattle!).

Wednesday morning I slept in late, hung out with my Dad and then headed to Ann Arbor to see my few friends who are still left in town. For dinner I ate sushi with Matt and Alanna:

Alanna, Matt, Rachel

And afterwards my old roommate, Emily, and I headed over to Old Town, ye old favorite watering hole, where I had at least one too many Long Islands while reminiscing about the good old days. The next morning John drove into town from Detroit (via Baltimore, where he just started his AWESOME NEW JOB as a radio producer . . . belated public congrats on that). We enjoyed a quick cup of coffee and then I headed back to Grand Rapids for a delicious Thanksgiving dinner with my folks.

Mom had work off on Friday, so we made a quick shoe-shopping stop before my very dear friend and potential domestic partner, Mike, drove in from his parents’ house in Kalamazoo. We met up with my other ex-roommate, Andrew, who we found wandering in the parking lot of East Grand Rapids’ Middle School with skewerfuls of marinated meatballs he had brought for us.

andrew’s meatballs

The three of us headed downtown to Founders’ Brewery for a couple of pints and a few games of Erotic Photo Hunt at the Black Rose. After dropping Andrew at his parents’ (I had to keep the door-lock button pressed to prevent him from trying to roll out of the backseat at 30+ mph), Mike and I stopped by a party at my friend Vlad’s old apartment, where his brother is currently living.

This is Vlad. BIG HEARTS.

VLAD

I’ve only recently realized that I don’t keep in touch with any of the friends I made before starting high school. Though Vlad and I somehow ended up graduating together as two of the nine Comparative Literature majors at Michigan, we actually met NINE years ago, in the ninth grade. This makes Vlad my oldest friend.

After hearing about the woes of his life as Ph.D. candidate in Slavic languages, and hanging out in a pretty amazing room-size blanket-fort, Mike and I headed back to my parents’ house for the first sleepover party I’ve had since I was 16! Of course, we did it up college-style (cheap wine, coffee mugs) and basically passed out on the living room floor watching old episodes of Curb Your Enthusiasm.

cheap wine + mugs + mike = LOVE

After Mike headed home to Chicago on Saturday morning, my parents and I went to see Todd Haynes’ latest masterpiece, I’m Not There, which was thoroughly thought-provoking and probably one of the prettiest films I’ve seen in a long time. I loved it. For the rest of the night and most of Sunday I just hung out with Mom and Dad and ate a lot of delicious home-cooked food.

Sunday night I headed way up north to visit Marshall where he’s currently living in Harbor Springs. It was cold, but Lake Michigan was still very beautiful and there was more than enough firewood to keep the fireplace glowing.

marshall and rachel, reunited

We did a lot of catching up, played some Scrabble, watched Planet Unicorn on YouTube, and made a delicious dinner on Monday (though the low point of the week was probably when, while pureeing boiled squash to make soup, the blender lid came off and spewed scalding hot squash-goo all over Marshall’s kitchen and my left arm, burning me pretty badly). I drank a lot of scotch to try and kill the pain, which was only moderately successful, and was probably also the reason why I woke up groggy and slightly hungover on Tuesday morning.

Though there was no snow when I got up around 7, by the time 8 o’clock rolled around it was a downright blizzard!

blizzard

I got an unexpected crash refresher-course in snow-driving, which was actually a lot of fun, and made me feel strangely more at home than I had all week. It took me four hours to get back to Grand Rapids, where I headed straight for the airport. After nearly thirteen hours of driving, flying, coffee-drinking, intermittent nodding-off, and waiting for maintenance crews to fix malfunctioning aircraft, I was met by the smiling faces of my Hub-Bubble family who drove me home and served up a different kind of home-cooked meal.

So, here we are, home again, home again, I guess. Though all of this traveling has me wondering where home really is anymore. Basically, if “home is where the heart is,” then I’m totally homeless, wandering around with a roll of duct tape and a glue stick, trying to gather the scattered pieces of my little heart and rebuild them into a big, warm house in which everyone I care about will fit. How’s that for melodrama?

What this trip DID remind me of, however, is that though I often chalk my sentimentality for Michigan up to the people I love who still live there, it is also simply a beautiful place, teeming with gorgeous landscapes, water, sand and seasons. Also, I was reminded of how much I like traveling - and I don’t necessarily mean “seeing the world.” I like thinking while I’m driving alone in the car. I like watching strangers from god-knows-where heading to their respective foreign destinations as they pass through the airport lobby. I like that one morning I can be on one side of the country, and on the other side the next. As Amy Hempel put it in Tonight is a Favor to Holly:

“Four days a week I drive to La Mirada, to the travel agency where I have a job. It takes me fifty-five minutes to drive one way, and I wish the commute were longer. I like radio personalities, and I like to change lanes. And losing yourself on the freeway is like living at the beach - you’re not aware of lapsed time, and suddenly you’re there, where it was you were going.”

 

 

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